wodesorel
Seventh Instar
And making leaps and bounds apparently. There was a jumping spider trying to get into my cricket bin last night and my first instinct was to reach over and scoop it up bare handed. Then my brain kicked in and I used tongs to knock it into a container to get it outside. But - I didn't scream, freak out, or make my husband come and get it instead. Go me!
The thing that is really holding me back and still leaving me abjectly terrified is the fear of being bit. When I was little I had a cellar spider that bit me on the finger when I turned on a light switch, and the wound refused to heal for nearly a year and it hurt like crazy. And then when I was older and my mom was planning on remarrying, the girl who was going to become my little sister had a spider bite that developed a granuloma so severe that it had to be carved out of her arm after a year of living with a painful lump. Every time I see a spider, my brain tells me that it will cause major pain and injury if it touches me. Not rational, but that's what my thought process is. I'm getting to the point where I can be more rational when I see them, and I want to continue to move forward and not be so afraid.
When it comes to native spiders, I don't know which ones are going to be harmless and which ones could potentially bite. Or if they all bite if touched? Or do they only bite in defense when restrained? Can they bite through nitrile gloves? I don't even know where to look to research this and find out!
Can someone help?

The thing that is really holding me back and still leaving me abjectly terrified is the fear of being bit. When I was little I had a cellar spider that bit me on the finger when I turned on a light switch, and the wound refused to heal for nearly a year and it hurt like crazy. And then when I was older and my mom was planning on remarrying, the girl who was going to become my little sister had a spider bite that developed a granuloma so severe that it had to be carved out of her arm after a year of living with a painful lump. Every time I see a spider, my brain tells me that it will cause major pain and injury if it touches me. Not rational, but that's what my thought process is. I'm getting to the point where I can be more rational when I see them, and I want to continue to move forward and not be so afraid.
When it comes to native spiders, I don't know which ones are going to be harmless and which ones could potentially bite. Or if they all bite if touched? Or do they only bite in defense when restrained? Can they bite through nitrile gloves? I don't even know where to look to research this and find out!
Can someone help?
